My brain really wants to fight things. It gets lost in all of the details of the circumstances. The truth is, I forced a hug on my wife. She was clearly not comfortable doing it, hell, I am not sure that I was completely comfortable doing it. I was off, was sneaking around eating cake and new that. Then, when she got home, was trying to keep a composure and then quick hugged her. Let me look at me before I look elsewhere for information and answers.
So my brain wants to fight all of that and argue it was something wrong with her. I know also felt bad because I was not available for her earlier. That is common when I am at work. But how often do I just tell her honestly, I do not have time right now, it will have to be later. Or how often do I tell myself that, hey this is important, what I am doing now will have to wait or be handled by someone else.
I want both; I want to handle this now so I can feel accomplished and I want to be with her now so I can feel safe and a good husband, but the reality is I cannot have both.
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